Abiding in Him Through the Chaos

I’m having trouble staying focused this morning. Though I’m trying not to, I just keep thinking about all the things I need to do today. I have all these distractions all around me, including a rapid-fire Nerf gun that I’m pretty sure is making more noise than a real machine gun. Every once in a while, the dogs will catch sight, through the window, of the neighbor’s dogs and they’ll go crazy, barking and carrying on. Even the ferret is acting up, slapping his water bottle around and tossing it into the floor!

I got up unusually late (for me) this morning, so I missed my quiet time. I love my quiet time!! I just want like an hour of peace and quiet to close off everyone and everything but God. But today, I’m not really feeling that opportunity presenting its self. I want to go hide in the bathroom and shut the door, which, I would, but my family would think I was crazy if I went in there with an arm-load of books and my computer. And, inevitably, just as I got all into it, someone would need to use the facilitites!

So I’m crying out in my head, “God, I just want to be with you!!”
And then He gave me this…

I Thessalonians 5:16-18:
Be joyful always; pray cotinually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.

I’m sitting here with all my emotions tied in a knot, trying to spend my quality time with the Lord, and He’s telling me He’s alredy here with me. I need to just enjoy these little “distractions” that He has blessed me with. I can pray all day from within and spend time with Him and not have to be all religious about it. Its okay. Because He sees my desire to be with Him and that’s where its at – my heart. So I need to give thanks in all this chaos FOR all this chaos. I love my family so much. Some day this little Nerf-gun-shooting, action-packed, bundle of noise is going to be grown and gone. I love these days with him laying on the dining room floor and…hey! Is that my decorative scarecrow you’re beating up?! (head-shaking, eye-roll) lol.

Oh, Lord, some day I’ll miss all this! Thank you for the precious gifts you’ve given me and thank you for spending the day with me and helping me to feel Your presence in spite of my failed attempts to show You some Martha-esque, ritualistic, pseudo-spirituality! As always, Your way is much better!